It’s another year again for me to decipher what lies ahead of me. And I am honestly ambiguous pertinent to the direction of my career while I am a breasfeeding mother,with a 6-year old independent young kid and an extended family for that matter. I feel the pressure hanging all over me and the more that I feel it, the more that I am becoming clueless. After childbirth, my mind became totally oblivious of the fact that I cannot do it by myself although with but with focus and determination I know that I can. Besides that, there were plenty of set backs brought about by the pasts’ unimaginable circumstances. YEAH bills, domestic trifles and bills.
One time I wrote them all down starting from the minutest to the gravest in weights and I realized that the most trivial is the hardest thing to fix. So I said this is what lies ahead. This year I felt accomplished though, I had another baby , so wonderful that I see no pain in her eyes. So pure and innocent.,,that alone eliminates all uncertainties that I harbor. She makes me feel so sure of life that even if I have been bitten and crumpled so many times by some ruthless entity, we stood and fought realizing that this rascals dont give any meaning to my life but her. A small piece of positive sign to a bigger breathing wonderful child.
